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Saturday, November 19, 2011

For J.I.R. - January 17, 1966 - January 6, 1998

You are still in my heart and on my mind, almost 14 years later. I still miss your smile and see your face in my dreams. But I no longer blame myself. I learned to forgive you, and myself. I know that nothing I could have said or done would have swayed you from your decision, because you were not well. Depression consumed you and in a moment of drug-induced haze you chose the wrong course of action. I have learned so much from you, from our life together and from your death. I will never forget.

Today is International Survivors of Suicide Day.  I hate that almost 14 years later I still feel these feelings. SO many things I want to write but I just don;t have the words today. Maybe later. Maybe another day. Please stay strong. And if you can't be strong, reach out for help. You are not alone.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Update

Yes, I'm back to the purple hair.
School.
Finally got the car fixed. I spent almost 10x more doing that than I did on buying my first car almost 20 years ago.
School.
We survived  Snowtober 2011. I lost all my food in the 4 days without power.
School.
Professor Crazypants has actually turned out to be the most awesome and generous of the bunch.
School.
I got my shiny new laptop. It's very pretty and I'm sure it will run my games very smoothly if I ever get around to playing any.
School.
How the *%$# is it already November?!
School.
School.
School.


Did I mention school?