One of the things I think about is, would the rape I lived through at age 18 have effected me so profoundly if I hadn't already experienced sexual abuse during my childhood? I guess there is no way for me to know. In some ways I feel like it was the straw that broke the camel's back, as it were. But I have not met a survivor yet who has NOT been deeply wounded by even just one assault. That's all it takes. One time, and it messes with the rest of your life.
Today I choose to live and not let fear rule me. Just for today.